Okay I know, I know I’ve got a few stories still out there still undone and well more plot bunnies than I know what to do with but hum …yeah I got nothing.

I’m am feeling a lot better though and Dawn and I are starting the Artist Way together and we get to meet on Sundays! Go us.

Anyways I wanted to update when I had some cute funny story so here it is :yesterday at the book store this pretty little prefect type came in about 16 and I was like ‘May I help you’, and she was like ‘I would like the scary non-fiction where’s that?’ Thank God my Manger steped in at this point and said ‘I’ll help you’ because I was about to at least get a write up. I was in one second going to say you have got to be joking the scary non-fiction, no wait I’m sorry it’s right next to the true fiction. Some days I wish things were different that I was different and then I remember I could be the pretty perfect scary non-fiction type and I love myself a little bit more with all my bad points.  

My birthday has come and gone but what is most important the very beautiful Buffy box set is in my possession! All seven seasons of vampire goodness, all feels so right with the world.

Haven’t been doing much but sleeping and today I got two room cleaned and organized and its still early might try for a third or maybe I’ll just watch Hellboy 2. Oh what shall I do?

In case you wondered I’m still in love:

Isn’t he pretty!

This is my attempt at getting back my writing mojo.

Hey did you know that I ordered the set of Buffy DVD’s seasons 1-7 chosen collection and I can’t wait to get it.  I so want it!

I have to say that my brain has on auto pilot it’s like I just don’t want to deal with anything serious in my real life right now. Cause in point yesterday at work I found myself seriously reading a romance novel  (click to see the book) I was ‘like this is really a great book’ truth be told at about 84 pages there is fan fiction out there that reads just as good or better and it free. I think my brain is telling me that it needs some rest.

Right now at work the boss is going crazy because loss prevention is coming down hard on everyone and that means she is running changing things hoping that will help the loss numbers and of course the first place to look is the employees, so I just bought like 100 dollars worth of holds I had and still she like telling how I need to make sure that when I buy things it rings up right and blah blah blah. What more do you want from me! I feel like returning all of it and buying my stuff online because even with my discount it’s still about the same or a better deal online. Needless to say work has been tense as of late! I so just need to finish my degree and get out of there. Right now this minute I am going to start cleaning my computer room because it’s crazy messy then later Noodle Café!

Alright so have you ever just not liked someone?  Their very existence pissed you off and hey it was no fault of their own it you all you and you know it! That’s whats happening to me at my favorite knitting shop. She’s great has two kids and now works at the knit shop part time. In truth she has everything I ever wanted and I am very jealous. I should just get over it but hey that would mean I was a logical grown up and all we know that is not true. So I’ll just knit at home and I think I’ll just start working on knit nights so I can blame work for not going as much.

So what have I been doing since I haven’t been going to the knit shop every single day? Well since you asked Rain (I wish). I had a little crush that’s been growing and growing and now it’s out of control I even tried to join the fan club but I have no idea what kind of Id they’re asking for. He’s very big in Asia and apparently was in that speed racer (crap now I have to watch it).

On the writing front I have a drabble that I did for a writing prompt that I’m thinking has turned into a little fanfic. Be looking for the drabble on Saturday after I get someone to read it. Any beta’s out there? There short little Xangel’s not like the Compatible that is now like 84 pages long and am just getting to the juicy part. I so need an outline and plan for an ending.

Okay I’m going back to the knitting because it’s the Knitting Olympics: during the opening of the Olympics (the opening song was done by Rain) you cast on a challenging project that you knit and finish before the closing ceremonies 17 days later. You lose points for yelling at family members calling into work or generally being a bitch.

Yeah I’m already like -26, oh well.

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After another night of not sleeping I got up and call my Doc and she actually talked to me, why are we as patents surprised about that? Anyway I do not have leukemia I do have a blood disorder (which I already knew Von Willebrands) and that is probably why I’m on the list. She even went so far as to say that if she had gotten that letter in the mail she would have freaked out too. So okay feeling way less crazy now, on our meeting on Friday she wants me to do this program that testing new meds though I’ll talk to her but she basically says that the stuff I’m on that like 960.00 a dose is not really working like it should and the new stuff has worked with other people so it’s not like I really have too many choices, we’ll se though.

Alright ready for a little happy news my manager, I will not name her ordered me a book because I do love the yaoi it is called Yaoi Gothic the true title however is Yaoi Gothic: An Explicit Sketchbook and comes in plastic wrap with a nice NOT MEANT FOR CHILDREN parental warning sticker or maybe it was printed on the book itself. Everyone took a look, yep you guessed it was way too much. I mean, oh my God I feel the guilty for even having touched it and I’ve read a lot of fanfiction! I’m just not good with pictures. All I can think is  this was ordered for me it has my name on it..

I go in today and it should be good, maybe I’ll get some writing in.

Because it's been so long I'll start with this I thought it to be fun and it's rather true:





Find your Celestial Choir


Still working on the house and getting everything the way I want it. The fan fiction and the knitting though have been distracting me. Most of the time I want to hide in my bed with my books and yarn but then the phone rings and I think there are people who do like me and want to do stuff with me well the books and yarn I can do that any time and those boxes can wait another day.

Who am I kidding I wasn't gonna unpack any boxes any way.

Still house sitting and I am happy to have some down time. Today I called into work because of generally feeling crappy. I just napped and watched you tube all day. I am so in love with all the art journaling and knitting people how put up free videos for everyone. Then I moved on to actually doing a few art journal pages (ya me) now I think I’m going to move to knitting and maybe watching a movie or two.

What’s up for Sunday you say packing up all my stuff for the actual real move back home because I won’t be coming back here for a while. The last time I went home I left some stuff (lots of stuff) behind because I knew I had two weeks of house sitting. Then knit club, then I have someone coming to look at my computer I thought it was okay but I can’t get either of the cd drives to work. And after that I’ll finish up the organizer I’m trying to make and type up all my Compatible notes. That’s a whole day of me me me and I deserve it, because my house is so not unpacked though I do have a two week vacation after the 6^th of January so it will be cleaning and a unpacking party except for a 3 or four day road trip.

So today I moved boxes in the freezing rain and I loved it. That’s right I’m going home. The works not all the way done but most of it is and I’m so ready to be in my own space that I’ve moved boxes in the rain for the last two day and will be back at it tomorrow. The cool thing my Dad came though for me in a big way he brought my brothers and some other guy over and we (yes I mean me too) kicked ass and unloaded like 60% of the pod we have in the back yard. We were smart enough to label the boxes so it was easy going once I showed them around and explained what rooms were what.

I’ll actually have a craft area, bedroom and office. The small room that was my office will now be my bedroom and the bedroom my office since I spend most of my time on the computer it make no since to have it the other way around.

I even got to knit today and bought the yarn for the EZ Pie shawl knit along I can’t wait to cast on but I have lots of things to keep me busy like unpacking and catching up on slash reading and writing.

The only bad side is that I don’t have my DSL up so I will be gone for a while but I will return I’m just afraid that if I get it hooked up I won’t get any work done because I’ll spend all my time looking up all the stories I follow.

Pictures to come soon, if I can get my camera to work.

It's getting so hard. I'm still not home yet and it will most likely be another two to three weeks before I can go home. Things seem to be  just  raining down on me and I don't know how much more I can take. I just want to be left alone but that is really not an option right now. I wonder if I click my heels three times and say 
'theres no place like home" will it work... Oh wait...Nope still can't go home.

On the up note in a need not to think about my personal life my friends and I have stared an art club, went back to monthly knitting group and I'm looking for a weekly one. Also I've been writing up a good amount of fan-fiction long hand, so when I get unpacked some time after the first of the year there will be lots of fictions goodies.

Oh yeah I miss my boy too, never thought I'd say that but I do. April is coming down today so that means Sonic slush's and Princess Bride quoting. If it weren't for my friends I would have nothing to hold to so thanks guys.

In one week I went from having my own home with all my lovely stuff to sleeping on a pull out sofa and I just may be better off in the end.

Sunday: at 11:30 am the dryer catches fire. In one hour my whole life turns inside out. The cat we had for 12 years dies and the firemen triple the amount of damage done by the fire. If it wasn’t for Red Cross I don’t think I would have made it. All I could say as people started calling was I have no cloths everything I have is gone. The house looked so bad when we went back inside, that I though it all must be lost.

Monday: I start getting phone calls and well wishes coming in. I go back to the Red Cross and they give us tree more night in a hotel that keeps small dogs so I can have Gucci with me, they also give me a voucher for some cloths and new glass. We go back to the house and try to pull out some stuff but we just can’t everything sinks so bad and is so dirty that I cant see how any of it will ever be clean again.

Tuesday: I go looking for an eye doctor and I come to terms with the fact that I can’t keep my doggie with my its not fair to her and I am way to busy to pay her very much attention. I have to leave her with Lisa (who I trust and will be living with in the next few days, Monday in fact). I go into work and am given and envelope that makes me cry, the guys at my job really came though for me. I can’t say enough or give enough hugs to let people know how much what they did means to me. They gave money offered laptops offered to let me raid their closets for cloths. What do you say when you have nothing and the people around you step up and let you how much they care.

Wednesday: I have to call into work so I can meet the cleaning guys and try to understand what we have to get done. I am very well intentioned “We will survive” this we can make, till the contractor shows up and is like sweetie all your gonna be able to do is save valuables and keepsakes then we are going to bring in a dumpster and trash the rest of your stuff. I couldn’t even function I just had to leave the house taking my doggie with me. After Gucci got the once over from the vet and her ear and nails trimmed I took here to Lisa’s and this is when my heart split in two. I have not been away from Gucci for more than two days ever and with the loss of our cat Misha she hasn’t been eating like she should.

Thursday: Our last day in the hotel, we pack up and leave my mom goes to the house to try and pull some things out and I go to work. I have complained about my job before but I must say that working that eight hour shift where it was all about the books and not so much about the fire was a God send.  I went back to the house that day to try and get my computer and my webkinz but only got my webkinz because my mother is being super helpless (at one point she asked me hoe to open a bottle) and just couldn’t deal with staying in the house any longer. We move in with Mrs. Ida’s and I get my first real night sleep. I went to bed at 7:30pm.

Friday: I work again, have a fight with the pod people (on site storage folks) and go to be a 9pm after reading the fist half of Loveless the manga at work, because I forgot the key to the place I’m staying. Duh!

Saturday: I get up at 5:30am and am at the house at 6:30am clear a space for the pod, pick up all the energy drink bottles the firemen left in front of our house the day of the fire as a farewell  !@#$ you and 7:30am they deliver the wrong pod. I sweet talk the guy into please pretty please with anything you want on top go back and bring us the right one, because we need room for that dumpster to hold all of my stuff. Then we start sorting and packing up stuff on the first floor and I got my computer out I have no idea if it will still work or not but got it out anyway along with MY GLASSES. I found them in a pile of crap once Mrs. Ida cleaned them they were fine.

I am determined to come out of this trial in a better place and a better frame of mind. I have always been a “Prove it” kind of girl and thats just what everyone did, they proved it. Proved they have my backs: Sara (for putting out a call of help when I couldn’t make one myself),  Dawnie (for telling me about Loveless and offering me a way to get my fix), Lisa (for taking in the most important thing to me Gucci), Carol W (for make sure I got something I need and could use, yeah a basket of books and yarn would be nice but not when you have no underpants) Allen (for not letting me brood too much, because I was smited) and Kay (for feeding my webkinz and making sure I don’t self destruct from 300 miles away) love you guy sooooo much I don’t have enough words for you. Thank you!

Oh man, I just wasted 35 bucks I bounced a check for 0.87 cent that’s right less than a dollar!

I just need to say that. ::Shakes head and goes to get pancakes::